gaga-ing

my rollercoaster ride seems neverending really. bleargh.

happy. then sad. then angry. then irate. then crazy hype.then pissed.then happy again.

the very VERY vicious cycle goes on. and on. and on. and......

this is so blah i tell you.

moments where "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!" whizz through my head concurrently. the desire to bitch slap people at times has been really REALLY tempting.(so stay away from me if you dont want a smash on that head)

i'd love to tell. i'd love to confide. and as much as i love the people oh-so close to my heart.there are some things in life which i'd rather not share with anyone at all. secrets are good. but they can make you go crazy.

don't apologise cos you'll only look even more guilty. don't say that you know how i feel cos i never reveal everything to anyone. people know pieces. but never the full story. i don't trust. i don't. i just don't.

trust me. you don't know me. cos im still trying to find myself.

i think the number of times i've been upset this week has easily exceeded the number of fingers and toes i have added together.

so sad. so sad. so sad.

sulking and pouting has gone on overdrive.

feeling like shit now.