ignorance is bliss?

ignorance doesnt solve it.it only made it worst.
ive come to alot of point ever since the 'world' i built crumbled on me.
i rebuilt it with so much faith and trust which i swear, i never knew where it came from.
but i'm haunted.haunted every now and then with painful images of what had been or should have been.of the past.which brings nothing but fear and frustration.


im blessed.i truly am.
of how ive reshaped my life.
but im trying to get out from this rut im in.


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it kills me when eu speak of me as such.
it kills me when the history repeats itself.
it kills me.

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