i wish upon nothing anymore

i saw beyond what the eye see..
i saw myself standing outside the circle you create..
i saw myself praying right from afar...
i saw myself wanting so bad to be where i thought i should have been...
but then i realise i am really not there..
and i realise that i'm not capable being where i wanna be..

because both euu and iii fail to see that time has created the loop holes btwn us..
it filled the gaps with so many things we thought we knew...
we fail to mend the loop holessss...
we walk pass the wound thinking we healed it...
but we didnt...
we really didnt...
.....

i'm tired of expecting from myself..
i'm tired of trying...
i'm tired of failing..